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Indecisiveness

One thing that has been bothering me lately is how indecisive I can be. I mean, I can’t even order a simple coffee without wondering if I should have gotten the other one. Last year, I got a new phone but ended up sending it back because I could not decide if I wanted Samsung or Apple (I ended up getting Apple). To further demonstrate my indecisiveness, I recently got a job and. spent probably over two hours deciding what shoes to buy with my paycheck. It really should not be this complicated. Especially now, I have become even more indecisive with college deadlines. While I am still waiting to hear back from the University of Michigan, I have started to consider other schools, since I know I am probably not getting in. Because college is not only an academic decision but a financial one as well, I have to take so many things into account. It is also quite unsettling that no matter what choice I make, there will be an opportunity cost (see, I did learn something from Economics). This decision making process has also made my anxiety levels sky rocket, which adds to the procrastination. I am telling you, being someone who can sometimes leave things off to the last minute, but also has extreme anxiety, is a recipe for disaster. Usually I end up crying and then doing everything at once, which is great. I really hope U of M can just reject me already so I can make a decision and move on with my life.

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